My MSI Notebook

I have my own notebook computer. It is very easy to carry because it is small; I don’t have a hard time to carry it anywhere I go. I like the screen and keypad also. Before, I longing to have my own when I was still a student, I lost my hope because it is too expensive but now I have my own because I have work, I just couldn’t believe I’m having it right now but of course, I’m glad. My friends are happy for me. I can have still communication to them through internet using my notebook. And I thank God always for the blessing He has given me.

Coffee Experience

I love coffee. Especially after I ate lunch, I considered it as my desert. I also love the ambiance of the coffee store. I can read my favorite books or surfing the net through my laptop while I’m taking my favorite coffee. I like to see the different design of coffee they make, like vanilla on top and there’s a line of chocolate on it. Sometimes, it looks like a heart shape, very artistic. I also like the smell of coffee while their doing it inside the store. I don’t worry about the price because it is affordable and I’m very satisfied to the taste of their coffee they made.

Canon Digital Camera

I want to capture every happiest moment of my life. And now that I’m part of Christian Family, my desire to buy my own camera became stronger because there are so many events happened inside and outside the Church. I don’t want to miss the thing to capture those moments. I want cameras that will extremely beautiful shot especially at night so I can have a clear view during night events. I’m planning to buy it on December because that’s the time I have enough money to buy it. I just can’t wait, I feel so excited.

Emotional Side of Harry Potter Series

I was so amazed about this book and the emotional feeling of Harry that portrait in the story. When Harry James Potter reached of age of 11 years old, he was started to ask about his parent’s identity and how they are died to his aunt, who raised him up and doesn’t care for him. But sadly, his aunt didn’t say anything about Harry’s parents. During his first year at Hogwarts, he found out about the Mirror of Erise, which you can see what you want to see through the reflection of the Mirror. And the first time in his life, Harry saw his parents smiling back at him. Harry saw his father’s hand holding his shoulder through the reflection of the Mirror but when he turned his head behind his back, he saw nothing. Harry touched his father’s hand on his shoulder but in reality, harry touched only his shoulder but through the reflection of the Mirror, he touched his father’s hand. Harry stepped forward to the Mirror and touched it as if he can touch both his parents. In this scene, I felt pity for Harry Potter. It simply shows how he missed his parents; he never met them nor sees them because they died when he was a baby. Someone had killed them and he killed Harry Potter too but fortunately, Harry Potter survived because his mother’s love shielded him and that encounter leaved Harry that it can never erase anymore, a lighting scar on his forehead. A scar that makes Harry Potter became famous because no one can survive on that kind of attack and Harry Potter did. But for harry, he doesn’t need to be famous. That scar was extremely proof how he’s parents died. What on earth he will do for that scar when the exchange for that was losing his love ones? Harry Potter once visited his parent’s grave in Godric’s Hollow. On the top of their grave, Harry saw his father and mother’s statue holding a baby without a scar on his forehead, as if a simply happy family picture that showed on the old statues.

My spirit of sadness

When my pain leaved me a mark on August 2007, it was a terrible day for me, it changes me. I felt hopeless and helpless. But when I learned to look God as my hope and helper, it changes me as well. I begun to have more friends at church and ministries and I decided to commit my life to God who gave me strength and begun to change my life as well. As I doing my ministry in serving God and for the people of God, though I am enjoying and being proud that God use me for His glory, I keep asking myself “is this what God wants me to do?” “Is this the purpose of my life here on earth?” But before I joined the ministry, I have this feeling that I never felt before in my whole life. As if somebody whispering in my ear and in my heart that He wants to see me doing these things in the ministry and for all the people here on earth. But then, I’m just beginning to lose my interest in the ministry because I want to do something else not because I don’t want God anymore, not because I don’t want to serve Him anymore and serving people but it just that I don’t want to stay focus on there for the rest of my life. I keep on searching for happiness that I lost on August 2007; I keep striving for it for me to cover myself of happiness than sadness. I know that God didn’t promise that I will be healed emotionally once that I accept Him, being a Born Again Christian, is not like laying on bed of roses but rather on bed of torn roses. I also believe that God didn’t give us a problem that we can’t solve; He never gave us a burden heavier than we can carry. Life without a problem is worthless. I’m longing for deep kind of friendship or maybe a relationship; I want somebody to become my permanent friend or maybe a partner. I believe that God is always there for me, take care of me but I was tired of believing on things that it cannot be seen. I have friends, many friends in the church but none of them seem to be my closest friends. When I left the church, I was all alone. I want somebody to be with me wherever I go; I don’t want a person to be with me if I go one place to another. Of course, I don’t want to have relationship in person all alone but I want a relationship both God and to the person I loved. I just can’t control my feelings from being sad whenever I’m alone, it make the wounds stronger pain than before and I admit that I can’t never healed myself just by being with someone that later on will gone. I had my best friend before when we were in high school but when I continue my study in college and she did not, our conversation and being together become lessen. Too late that I knew, she was pregnant and I know eventually, she will go to have her own family. And that day, I decided to continue not to have relationship with her the way we had done before not because I’m angry for not telling me her whereabouts but because I realized that she’s now having a new life different from mine so I let her go, Plus the fact that her treatment to me will never be same anymore. A friend once told me, “It’s difficult to keep the faithfulness of the person” but God can, He is faithful to me even though I’m not faithful to Him. He is faithful to each one of us. And He loved us very much. I have told God through prayer in all of these, I’m not trying to be rude. I’m just being true and open because I know that God understand my needs as a human and I know that He know what exactly is in my heart although I’m not going to tell Him through prayer, He would know still. I had once read an article, it says “The things that made us hurt is the same things will heal us”. I also pray to God that someday, I will overcome this spirit of sadness and I pray that someday, someone will come along to be with me for the rest of my life and together we will experience the Holy Presence of God as we bond ourselves together with His love.

What Life Brings You?

As I grow older, I realized, Life isn’t easy. It was different when I was a kid, a child that knows nothing. Life is good, full of surprises, adventures and sometimes, bad. God said, Life is not always about good things. What would happen if all our desires were met? God’s ideas of good things in Life are different from people. God’s knows, we must have our storm of Life, I should say, problems comes our way, for us to have a rainbow. We must know our mistakes and admit it and learn from it. Unfortunately, many people can’t accept it. They choose to stay forever happy, which sometimes turn a person to be selfish. These kinds of people know nothing about Life and know nothing about God. Well, I guess, their time hasn’t come yet for them to realize what Life is all about. When I was in grade school, I thought, Life was just going to school, learn new things as I grew up and after school, went out and play with my friends. That was my everyday routine of my Life. When I was in high school, you heard your classmates teasing together with their crushes and going out and sometimes, having drinking session with them. When I was in college (which I had enjoyed), I had my permanent friends classmates, that after classes, I always been with them. Lunch with them, having break time with them, studying with them, going to the malls after classes and laughing out with them. During our classes, we had exchange scratch papers that had a simple note there, just a simple notes that’s made me happy. Our universities had a lot of school activities that we had enjoyed together. I had enjoyed my college Life that I almost forget about God. When my storm of Life came, I couldn’t help myself but cry, I just couldn’t stopped my heart from bleeding and I felt I was all alone. Then I remember God, God that has always been there but I was busy and I didn’t notice Him. God that always there for me through bad and good times. I called out to Him, cry and knelt my knees before Him. I said a serious prayer and God is so good that He answered me, He never turn His back on me but He touches me and change me the way I am right now. If I will look back at the past, I would say that, that those past failures and pains had teaches me and mold me for being who I am today. We can’t change the past or whatever we’d done in the past but the truth is, our past changes us in the future and become a better person. Meaning to say, we can’t never be right unless we admit our wrongs or failures. God is always ready to forgive all of our sins, if we are going to admit it, ask His forgiveness, leaving our sins behind and learn from it. As you grow older, you will realize day by day what Life brings you just as like, when you were a child, your physical image will change as you grow. My interest also has changes, I love to have a cup of coffee, taking pictures of different kind of events and going out different places. But what I had discovered very important both Heaven and Earth of what my Life brings me in is that, that I have my personal relationship with God, that I know how good is our God, how He loves us very much in spites of all our failures. Having personal relationship with God will covered everything. You can face everything in life and you can survive because you know God is always there for you. Thank You Heavenly Father.

The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren

The Purpose Driven Life
I heard about this Book while I’m not still a Born Again Christian about years ago during my college days. I heard them say, it is a nice Book that has a great message to all of us. So, I was thinking what kind of Book is that that everybody was talking about? I never heard a Book that famous to talk about. When my friend celebrates her birthday, that Book was my gift to her. I search it in a Book Store and buy it. That was the first time I saw that Book, I just stare at the front cover and read The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. I didn’t find it so interesting even the design of the cover, there’s a question saying “What on earth am I here for?”. Well, I decided to give it to her because I’m hoping that she will like it and appreciate it as well and I didn’t know what kind of gift I will give to her rather. Funny thing, I didn’t dare to read it for long, I just scan the front pages and read some of words there just to know what Purpose Driven Life is all about. It was February 22, 2009 when I became a Born Again Christian. Many of my Church mates mention this Book and the famous Book came again to my senses. By November of 2010, I was at the mall particularly at Book Sales looking for this Book. You can buy Books at this Book Store in a very low price. I found this Book in a Hard Bound Copy that if you buy it in any Book Store, it will cost more expensive. I’m glad that I have a copy although there’s some hand written on it (because it is a second hand book), I’m still blessed of what the Book says about our life here on earth. That everybody can be friends with God, our Heavenly Father, always been a Perfect Father, Loving Father and a Faithful One. This Book will enhance your personal relationship with God, The Father that you will know more about Him. This Book has a 40 chapter that you will read day by day, one chapter a day and you can provide your personal notebook if you want to say anything that you discover or how you feel about the chapter. You will learn to trust God the more you know Him better, learn from His words everyday of your life. You are not born into this world for nothing; God has a purpose to all of us that you will discover in every step of faith towards Him. Knowing your purpose will change the way you spoke, think and act. Read His words, The Bible. Communicate with Him through prayer and surely your relationship with Him becomes stronger.